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i wonder if people ever truly think about how they are seen by others.   and, i am not talking about in a superficial way, but in a serious, soul-searching type of sight.   i ask the question because i seem to have this mild fascination with the "online presence".   it can be related to twitter, blogs, texts, online dating, craiglist, comments made on a news story, facebook updates, and on and on and on.  is there a little irony here with me writing this blog and you out there reading this?   but, isn't that the whole point at least from your perspective, to get a sense of who i am.   i mean it isn't your fault if i choose to add or make content that is superficial, incomplete, or even inaccurate.  nope.  you are just here to see the content, be entertained and maybe get a sense of the person.   so, i guess the whole point is that me as the contributor have the responsibility to put forth content that reflects who i truly am.  in the end, we each have to hold ourselves accountable for what we do, what we write, what we say.  

so, maybe i have answered my own question.   i do think people think about how they are seen by others.  and,  maybe some of them just don't care how others see them.

and, maybe that isn't such a bad think.   if you can see yourself for who you truly are then you are doing ok.   however, i wonder (ever a good thing?) if that vision is the same vision as those of others.

this thought has been prevalent in my mind the last few days.  i know it is because of my returning back to portland.  my time away was good for me, as it helped me to really work towards finding who i was, and who i wanted to be.   time away allowed me to not worry how i thought my friends might see the changes i was making.  i did not have to worry about the pressure i would feel to have them see me as they always did, even if that was a view of myself that i had grown to dislike.   we all strive to become our best, and true friends are there to help you along the way.   

i am who i have become, but that is not set in stone.  i will continue to make changes to make me better.

so, here i come.