Anticipation...

yeah, i am sitting here waiting to start my trip to europe.  i have decided on what clothes to take, created my playlist for my ipod, copied my documents to various spots, spot checked locations on the map, purchased my travel book, got my language book, tried to learn a language, downloaded language apps, test drove my new camera, and did a practice packing.    (whew, nice long/ run-on sentence)

so, i guess i am just to the point to put the proverbial rubber to the road.   the false bravado may come down a little bit after i get onto the plane heading for berlin.   wow.   talk about a challenge.  go to another  country and get it down by yourself.   i can't say how much i am truly excited for this but i am not going to say that i have some nerves too.    does that have to do with flying on 9/11?   maybe.  but, i do feel that by doing something like this is truly a great to honor those lost on that day and those since who have been protecting us since.

i remember setting this trip up in march, and it is less than 72hrs away.  something to be said for seeing something through.  

so, maybe this is the new phrase:

PREPARATION 
          leads to ANTICIPATION 
                       followed by IMPLEMENTATION 
                                              producing CELEBRATION 

Happy Labor Day

pretty basic title.    labor day is about celebrating the workers of our society.   working doesn't have to equate to employment, but it does equate to a job.   we all have jobs in our own lives; spouse, friend, sibling, relative, and even acquaintances.   it really boils down to our biggest and most important job we have being their for others.   friendship in the simplest terms.   have we made a phone call ?  have we returned an email or text?  have we made somebody smile or laugh?   have we thought of another before we thought of ourselves.  

i always find it funny how i let my own thoughts (maybe, misconception is more accurate) cloud my judgement on things.   a simple and likely selfish one is keeping my fb friends to a "reasonable" number.   really?  yeah,  my thinking was "how do you really know or talk with that many people?"  i am talking 300+.  but, so what!   it was me being a bit selfish and spoiled and selective in who i know.  i think that is silly on my part.   why can't i "friend" more people?   here is a wonderful tool to allow people to make those small little interactions with others that help to make life a bit more bearable on those bad days, and we all have them.

so,  at least for me, i am gonna try to reconnect with folks and if i can try to give others a little more smile in their life.   and, it is good for my soul too.   :)

just my thoughts.

Insomnia

well, i guess it was just a matter of time before i wrote a blog due to the inability to sleep.  actually, in my case it is the inability to turn my brain off for a few hours.   some might think, that it was because i was so busy in life with the juggling of a career, family, debt and all the other parts of the american dream. :)
the issue is that i wish i were truly juggling a career and a significant person within my life.  wondering how i will add those components OR maybe the better description is how i get those BACK into my life.
i was doing fine, especially after getting back from a recent debacle trip to vegas.   (i would tell you but YOU know that i can't.  it is VEGAS-LAW!)

the trip was wonderful but the clarity that comes from bad decisions we make for ourselves or when bad things happen to you can be like a splash of cold water to the face.   now, i would like to think that i have matured enough to think the 'cold water to the face' days were behind me.   they are not.  but, i would say the frequency of them has decreased.  so, i take that as a win.   and, i guess that is the important part to see...the good or the improvement that we still can make.   the shitty stuff will always be there because unfortunately, that is what we are always and easily reminded of.  it takes real strength of character to see the good in any situation while NOT ignoring the bad but just not focusing on it.

see, that is what i am trying to keep doing with my own experiment/game of life.   i just want to be as happy as i was in
the picture.   i am working on it but sometimes i just don't see the
results.  well, i guess i just have to keep adjusting the process to get a
new result that i want.

-just a few sleep deprived cents.