Improvement comes after pain, unfortunately.

I find it hard to believe that I am actually glad that this year has been tough for me.     Getting knocked down was a really good thing, it caused me to REALLY evaluate myself and where I currently was.   And, I wasn't really happy with what I say.   The best part has been making changes for the better, and not just accepting where I was.    But, based on my experience in manufacturing, things never get fixed/resolved until the pain level of doing nothing becomes to much.  You see it everywhere, business, government, squeaky hinge, piles of dirty laundry...you get the idea.

My pain has been both professional and personal, and the changes I have been making have been dealing with both.   It might have been better to deal with my issues before but I am not sure the lessons would have truly stuck.   We humans have to feel that pain... take the hand on the stove..ouch... but you learn and remember.

So, I am glad that I am making the changes.  I feel like I have made just a minimal amount of progress but that is good because it is just a start.  The other thing has been getting feedback from new friends, old friends, and family that there is a new side of me.  And, the feedback is good.   All I hope to do is continue my growth, and pass on what I can to others who want it.

I guess that is it.   Just wanted to get a thought down.   Later.